Burt’s p.o.v.

The last couple of days, he’s brooding over how long he has left to live. He says 28 but means 2028, which is 8 years after his dx in 2020. I say no one can predict, and 8 years might be an average.

My husband is a brooder. Before his diagnosis, he tended to be moody. Lewy Body Dementia, the roller coaster that it is, has accentuated his mood swings. Worrying about the time left to him is one side of those swings.

Since I referred to ‘swings’, I also have to acknowledge the times he finds enormous happiness in the smallest of things. I need to tell you that he is often grateful and expresses gratitude to me.

He has said that even with the disease, he is the happiest he has ever been.

His worry over his mortality is the current mood. Not all the time. That would require more concentration than he’s capable of at this point.