What’s changed

Our lives have been turned topsy turvy by Burt’s dementia. Lewy Body has no timeline, but it does twist time.

Obviously, Burt has been changed by his illness. Not so obviously, so have I

The question: How has my pwd’s dementia changed me? has a long answer.

I so want to say I am a better person for Burt’s situation. Am I?

I have learned a great deal of medical terminology and some symptoms. I am open to learning, but I always was. Open, that is. Although not really to all the medical stuff that informs our relationship now.

I am also open to being a better person, of course. Who after all isn’t?
I am less resentful. That’s odd.

Definitely less snarky.

I am more open to learning about Burt; there are a lot of his qualities to explore. I hadn’t known so much about who he was, had overlooked the best of him.

He was always smart, and in the framework of his diminished cognition, the smartness shines through differently.

I always loved him, but it was less intense. It wasn’t as necessary.

I am more capable than I thought I could be. God, how I wish I weren’t and wish I did not have to be.