Emotions

I have talked about how emotional Burt has been. Lewy Body Dementia is often described as a roller coaster (hate ’em) because of fluctuating symptoms and variable every thing.

It’s also a roller coaster of moods that can shift in a minute or a heartbeat or an hour. For him, I would think those changes must add to the confusion bubbling in him all the time.

I want to acknowledge that he is not the only one suffering those ups and downs. Oh, of course, a beloved’s mood swings take a toll on the caregiver.

That aside, I am a bundle of quick changing feelings under an unusually placid facade. (Give or take an occasional outburst of impatience.)

Grief, as I documented in a poem and a post here is prominent.

Any exchange can bring on the sadness. Anger is always lurking, some of the time, I am ashamed to admit, addressed at him. There’s plenty of boredom as well, and empathy and fear of what tomorrow might look like.