#from-before – this is our life

Last night, Burt and I took a walk

It was a dream, of course, and quite lovely. And elaborate. Last night, I dreamt that Burt and I were out walking. We took a short cut through the lobby of a hotel, maybe one I’ve dreamt of before, but not in a long while. It was like my dream version of the Williams Club. Continue reading “Last night, Burt and I took a walk”

You Sit with Me

I imagine you at a table in The café in Sotheby’s, oneWhere an older couple sitsAs I pass. I imagine you asYou eat a tuna sandwich weBuy at Pret. I say imagine,Not remember, imagine is A more vivid word. It is ofThe present and I see youIn the present. You are myGift, my treasure. IContinue reading “You Sit with Me”

I write a poem

This is a poem becauseBecause I miss you andToday I miss you more, Seeing your picture, oneTaken years before yourIllness changed you, whenA walk on the ramp to orFrom our river path wasYour favorite way to spendSome hours, when you Were strong, and active,I miss you in that beforeTime, but you know I alsoMiss theContinue reading “I write a poem”

More in the memory dept.

As I leave lunch at Old John’s, I pass Merkin Hall and think Burt and I went there a few times. Of course we did. We went to just about every concert hall in town.

A trip

My first trip in forever takes me to a meditation on when and where Burt and I had travelled. Our travels were circumspect; we stayed close to home. We took the Amtrak to Hudson a number of times. Hudson is kind of the gateway to the Berkshires where I am going this weekend. On theContinue reading “A trip”

October 2013

Burt was so angry over the 2013 government shutdown that he refused to ever vote again. I disagreed with his conclusion, but understood the reasoning. He felt it was a huge disruption. The ACA prompted the Rs to stop work for those 16 days. We seem to have a similar excuse– health care– this timeContinue reading “October 2013”

Going to the movies

It seems that Burt and I, having gone on our first date and with our second one scheduled for the Sunday, saw Pretty Woman on Saturday night, separately and at different movie theaters. I saw it with my friend M. Burt, as I recall went on his own. This memory of our early history cameContinue reading “Going to the movies”

We used to….

Times Square was often our jumping off point to nearby theaters, like, but not limited to, the Hayes below. My weekend took me to this part of the world where so many of the paths I took were filled with memories. Every memory came quickly to my attention, and then gave me a long momentContinue reading “We used to….”

Back to the “from before”

Here’s the story of the picture [L] with the Blues Brothers vibe; I’ve shared this at length with A. who was curious about this photo in my pictorial. It’s a memory from the 2nd year that Burt and I were together. We were invited to party for Judith E’s birthday–who was married to Jim M,Continue reading “Back to the “from before””

Thinking of…

I am in a bereavement group at the moment. This is my second go at tackling, no taking in this kind of support. Why not? It’s very helpful talking to others recently bereft. We see the stages so much more clearly when they filter in other’s eyes. I try to be honest with my group,Continue reading “Thinking of…”