What’s a moment you wish you could freeze and live in forever? Sunday, May 3rd marked the 36th year since we met. The moments we spent together on that day are frozen in my memory. On that evening, we had wandered the city from West 21st Street to a restaurant at 50th and 1st Avenue.Continue reading “Forever”
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Loneliness
Loneliness is not just about being alone. I am lonely, not because I lack for company and friends, but because I miss Burt’s company. I love my friends. I am grateful to have them with me. I am fortunate to have them in my life. I enjoy our conversations, our outings, the time we share.Continue reading “Loneliness”
Weekly call
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you. Burt’s daughter would call him every week. In the last year or so, when LBD distracted him from the conversation, he still smiled at the attention. She and I would then catch up. Since he’s passed, she calls me every weekend and we catchContinue reading “Weekly call”
Video memory
Waiting for my old cellphone to migrate to the new one gave me an opportunity to catch up with the video of Burt in the rehab. He came home from the facility on February 25th, 2 years to the day before he died at home. The video is just under 7 minutes and in itContinue reading “Video memory”
More in the memory dept.
As I leave lunch at Old John’s, I pass Merkin Hall and think Burt and I went there a few times. Of course we did. We went to just about every concert hall in town.
An essay for carers
Why I will always treasure the healthcare pros who came into our lives when Burt got ill. There is a diminishment that comes with dementia. The dementia sufferer and the family who loves him see their quality of life plummet. It happens over time, but it also is evident early on, sometimes on day one.Continue reading “An essay for carers”
The parade
Are you the parade?, she askedNot in the parade or at the paradeIt was a tremendous responsibility Being the parade, she thought. Yes,She said. I am. The parade, she Added. Where are you?, she asked. WhereIs the parade, you mean?, she saidYes. I’m in Bayside, she answered.The parade, it’s in Bayside, near theWater. I mean,Continue reading “The parade”
Good advice
Some days, Burt is so intensely missed that I walk around in a miasma of loss. That’s on one day, and it’s fine. It is inevitable that that feeling will come or go or both at once. Today, I miss him but I’m digging into memories. With the memory the miasma lifts; I am notContinue reading “Good advice”
In a world gone mad
In a world gone mad, perhaps No madder, crazier than it has Been building – puffing itself up To, a world askew, I dream of You sitting by my left shoulder, When I awake disappointed to Find you gone, this feels sane, Missing you in a world turned Mad by liars, confidence men, Swindlers andContinue reading “In a world gone mad”
Midtown west
Our old stomping ground After the hard years, I get to remember and celebrate all the good years New York City Center has been restored beautifully. It’s a bright elegant spot even with all the superb theatrical venues the City sports. I have been a habituée for longer than you need to know. [Hey, itContinue reading “Midtown west”
this is our life 