Burt has taken to pontificating all night long. Or, almost all night. Twice when I said «it’s 4 in the morning now, you can try to sleep,« he’s agreeably responded “that’s all right with me.” I always refer to him as “honey” at 4a.m. He sleeps deep into the morning after that. Unlike some ofContinue reading “Call and response”
Category Archives: Sleep
Love, loss
Last night, Burt was very vocal. I believe he was mostly speaking in his sleep. Much of this conversation last night addressed complaints. He called out my name a few times. In this chatter, he fluctuated between an unfavorable and a positive view of me. It was clear that he knew who I was. ThisContinue reading “Love, loss”
Why I am up at 4
My circadian clock is resetting. I hit the sack at or before 8 or 9pm. It’s a full seven to eight hours by the time the clock ticks to 4am. Why so early to bed? you ask. Exactly. I lie down to help settle Burt, who after a nap from 6pm is suddenly on aContinue reading “Why I am up at 4”
Rest
There is considerable chaos Among the Chux on his bed.He moans, complaining as heSleeps. If the dreams are hardI will hear their wild stories inThe morning as he awakes toShare the narratives of hisImaginings and the pains hisMoans express. Yet his sleepIs fulsome, generous, relaxed
Management
Most nights, I’ve been going to bed at 8 o’clock since I can never be sure if Burt will awake in the middle of the night. We’ve had several 4am chatfests. I am generally bone tired by 8 from keeping farmer’s hours. I awake early, thanks to going to bed early. It’s a cycle. SleepContinue reading “Management”
Advocacy
A provider is giving me a hard time over my healthcare proxy. They’ve refused to discuss Burt’s plan of care until they vet my proxy. This morning, while mulling my frustration, I thought oh come on. I have the marriage certificate.* That should be proof enough. [*Side note: a beautiful copy of this docunent arrivedContinue reading “Advocacy”
The question of sleep
people who wear sleep trackers on a “perfectionistic quest for the ideal sleep” actually have their sleep become worse. If that sounds like you, it might be time to take a step back. “Sleep is a passive process,” one doctor told Kate. “It is to be protected, not forced — or ‘maximized.’” In short, windingContinue reading “The question of sleep”
My guy
Exasperating though he is…. It’s a long shift when early rising and a later bedtime turn the day into 16 hours. In much of this time, he is totally and naturally confused. His conversation, as I may have mentioned, is a constant deposition of theories and ideas. There is an insight occasionally which jars meContinue reading “My guy”
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